to say i don't care about attention though would be insincere. i lived my life getting attention for an identity i was never attached to, so in a way, i feel like i have to make up for 23 years of not being anyone i cared about in some way, and yes that includes the attention i get socially. i feel like i have to develop my identity on double speed since i've essentially started my idea of myself at age 23 instead of from birth (edited)